Waiting...again!
OK, tying not to FREAK OUT right now. SO, I'm going to try to make this short so I can just go to bed, today has been WAY to stressful.
The news is both good and not-so-good. Good new is that I DO NOT have an ectopic baby in there.
Not-So-Good news is that I'm only measuring 5 weeks, 6 days so right now there is no baby to be found. Just a yolk and a gestational sack. Understandable if I am so "early" but still stressful. I tried not to get stressed-out and worked-up over today's ultrasound over the last couple of weeks, and now, it begins again. I have to wait another 2-3 weeks to get another u/s to see if the baby decides to show up. THIS however is not the largest source of my stress.
When the tech was leaving after the u/s I asked if I could have a print-out and she kinda snorts and boasts "OF WHAT?!? A SACK?!?" I say "yes" and she proceeded to tell me that "I don't want that" and that "I shouldn't get my hopes up yet." I asked "please" and she practically laughed at me and told me flat-out "NO." So, I have no ultrasound picture to post. I don't care if all I can see is the beginnings of what will be a visible baby, I WANT MY PICTURE. Unfortunately, I had someone else there also telling me what "I DON'T WANT." Well EXCUSE ME, but since when does anybody have knowledge or right to tell me what I want? Next are they going to be telling me I don't want an epidural? How about extra pillow for my back or a glass of water? Will I "not want" something just because someone says I don't? The rudeness of it all just baffles me and the unprofessionalism of it makes me feel insecure.
In the meantime, I'm wondering how in the world I'm going to get through the next couple weeks. Am I really supposed to "not get my hopes up" or "not get attached" yet? Should I just put away my pregnancy books and magazines and put "that part" of my life on hold? I don't want to do that. That's half of the reason why I was desperately hoping to have that "BIG SIGH OF RELIEF" ,after today, but now it's just another 2, maybe 3 weeks of trying not to worry. If anything, the Lord will have me on my knees more frequently, which admittedly, will be good for me. He's going to have to provide my sanity and peace. I just can't do it on my own.
Oh, by the way, I should get my beta #'s back in the morning, so hopefully those will be good and ease my mind a little. Also, it's a singleton, no twins. Just one little one as far as we can tell.
The news is both good and not-so-good. Good new is that I DO NOT have an ectopic baby in there.
Not-So-Good news is that I'm only measuring 5 weeks, 6 days so right now there is no baby to be found. Just a yolk and a gestational sack. Understandable if I am so "early" but still stressful. I tried not to get stressed-out and worked-up over today's ultrasound over the last couple of weeks, and now, it begins again. I have to wait another 2-3 weeks to get another u/s to see if the baby decides to show up. THIS however is not the largest source of my stress.
When the tech was leaving after the u/s I asked if I could have a print-out and she kinda snorts and boasts "OF WHAT?!? A SACK?!?" I say "yes" and she proceeded to tell me that "I don't want that" and that "I shouldn't get my hopes up yet." I asked "please" and she practically laughed at me and told me flat-out "NO." So, I have no ultrasound picture to post. I don't care if all I can see is the beginnings of what will be a visible baby, I WANT MY PICTURE. Unfortunately, I had someone else there also telling me what "I DON'T WANT." Well EXCUSE ME, but since when does anybody have knowledge or right to tell me what I want? Next are they going to be telling me I don't want an epidural? How about extra pillow for my back or a glass of water? Will I "not want" something just because someone says I don't? The rudeness of it all just baffles me and the unprofessionalism of it makes me feel insecure.
In the meantime, I'm wondering how in the world I'm going to get through the next couple weeks. Am I really supposed to "not get my hopes up" or "not get attached" yet? Should I just put away my pregnancy books and magazines and put "that part" of my life on hold? I don't want to do that. That's half of the reason why I was desperately hoping to have that "BIG SIGH OF RELIEF" ,after today, but now it's just another 2, maybe 3 weeks of trying not to worry. If anything, the Lord will have me on my knees more frequently, which admittedly, will be good for me. He's going to have to provide my sanity and peace. I just can't do it on my own.
Oh, by the way, I should get my beta #'s back in the morning, so hopefully those will be good and ease my mind a little. Also, it's a singleton, no twins. Just one little one as far as we can tell.
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